I fell and I can't get up!!

Last Wednesday night around 8:15, Mom came home from work after shopping and was emptying out her car. Her ankle twisted and she fell on the cement and broke her shoulder. When Annie came home she called 911 and a few male friends to help Mom up. Some Hunky Firemen appeared (Mom was pretty excited about that) Paul gave her a blessing before they headed to Mercy Folsom E.R. Annie, Kathy and I sat with her until about 2:30 in the morning when the finally sent her home with a sling and heavily drugged. Poor thing she threw up as soon as we got in the car. One of the hardest moments was when they asked her what her marital status was.....she paused and told the nurse she was a widow. That just pierced through my heart. We laughed a lot watching Mom in such a drunk like state. I can't even remember exactly what she said, it was more how she said it. There we were the three sisters once again watching a loved one in pain. It was sureal...Not that we need sympathy, for this is our honor to take care of those who loved unconditionally and raised us in a loving home. Mom is home now, she can't do much, sometimes God slows you down. I'm not sure where everyone else is at with their grief, but I personally, obviously am very open about it. I am not so much sad, but in in disbelief. I can't even stand to there those words...Dad is Dead. I feel like my blood runs out of my body when I hear those word right now. Life is hard and if all we had to do was love and grieve oh how easy it would be, but there is so much else going on and we have to press forward and do our best to keep ourselves together. This is what Dad would want. Oh, I can hear him now, "Don't cry for me, Jenny, smile, I love your beautiful smile!" I'm sure he misses us too, but I feel him nearby and I think of him often during the day and it brings a smile to my face and sometimes, sometimes a tear to my eye. Life goes on without you....