Today is the First Day of the Rest of Your Life...

That saying used to be in my parents bedroom all while I was growing up. It never meant much to me then, but now as I reflect on the past few years and the experiences we've dealt with watching our sweet father deteriorate, I realize that this saying is so true. Each day brings a newness we have never experienced before. It's an opportunity to start over, or as I say have do over. To make the most of the past and most importantly learn from it.
I didn't realize today actually is two months since our sweet Daddy passed. I guess that's good it took me most of the day and someone to remind me. That's a good sign right?
Whenever Dad would walk in my home, which was always a very slow walk, before he sat down he would say, "Hey, could I get a glass of ice water?" He would say it each time as if it were the first time, and as if I should be surprised. It always made me laugh for some reason. I miss having to lift him up hoping my back wouldn't give out. I miss checking on him while he was in the bathroom. I miss seeing my dog curled up next to him and them sleeping all day together on the couch under an electric throw blanket. I miss making lunch for him, and him loving everything I would make. I miss him calling me gorgeous and smiling everytime I walked in the room. I miss him asking for BBQ Sauce or Soy Sauce for EVERY meal. Even if it already had soy sauce on it....The numbness is starting to wear off and it's becoming more real. And I don't have to like how if feels!! But, life goes on and this month I will celebrate my 18th year of being a Mother, my 21st Anniversary of being married to my best friend, the 16th Birthday of my second daughter, Alyssa. Along with Chelsea's Laurel Recognition Night, receiving her Young Women's Medallion Award, and going to her Senior Ball. She will graduate from Bella Vista on June 4th. It won't be the same without Grandpa but I know he will be smiling down on all of his as we celebrate this special milestones in our lives.